Sunday, December 5, 2010

The Times They Are A'Changing

You know that feeling where you wish your life was such that you could pack your bags and leave for wherever you wanted whenever you wanted? I realized those things never happen the way you want them to but, eventually you do reach where you are supposed to reach. In my case I am hoping that is New York. Yes, I am moving there end of this month (December 29, 2010.) It is a little daunting to think about it. I literally have NO plan of action. I figured the worst that could come out of it would be that I would get to experience New Years Eve New York style and see some of Washington D.C. - hopefully when its not snowed in. Also travel around Boston and NOT go to Harvard just because the rebel in me would revel in knowing that I am not just another Indian vying to be inside those walls.

For anyone else who has made that shift you know what its like to leave the sunny 60 degree weather in California for the frostiness of the east coast. So scary! But the scarier thought was not doing anything about the job situation. I weighed the pro's and con's, made an excel sheet and though the con's outweighed the pro's of my decision - I decided to move anyway!

So, sure I am not a filthy millionaire who can fly off to wherever it is that I fancy. I am still travelling to more places than I was when I was working. I am experiencing the humility of accepting kindness from family and friends. I am learning to swallow my pride and reach out to people for help. I am learning the depth of this feeling called hope- its never-ending ability to sustain the human heart. I am also learning about my strengths and weaknesses. As I see it, this is the picaresque novel of my life and this journey is taking me more places than just cross-country.