I realized how long it had been since I wrote just for fun. You would think that not having to write about maternal mortality, India's green revolution, bio gas plants in Bangladesh or internally displaced people in New Orleans would be reason enough to sit down and write! Sigh! Anyway, a lot has been going on since my last post. For one - I am back in the territory (USA.) There is a lot to be stressed about this time:
1. This is my last semester
2. I need to look for jobs that I may consider doing for more than 2 years
3. An 80yr old landlord who openly watches porn (uughh)
4. 22 units worth of classes
5. A part time job
6. Wild and crazy dreams
The dream I had last night was particularly disturbing. I dreamed that I was a mother with an infant and a toddler. Again, you would think that was scary in itself! It gets worse. We were moving homes and for some reason I knew I was going to be murdered by a serial killer who attacks only when people are moving. I was more scared for my children and was pushing them under the beds and covering them in blankets. There was this disturbing sense of resignation almost like I was helpless when it came to my death. Super freaky dream to have when you are 24.
That apart there are things that are going well:
1. I have been consistently working out for almost 3 months now and have lost close to 10lbs. Yoga, running and spinning are what I do most.
2. I have begun cooking and eating home cooked food rather than the frozen stuff. This has allowed me to experiment with dishes like chana masala and pav bhaji which I normally would not try.
3. I have significantly reduced my intake of fish and chicken (the only two kinds of meat I eat)
Now if you pictured me as one of those people on the biggest losers show - please stop! I used to weigh about 138lbs and am now down to 128lbs. I can tell the difference though. I can run faster and cycle more in the same amount of time. Just dont know how long I want to keep pushing myself so intensely.
P.S. After writing this post I realized that my personal life has never been better and my professional has never been worse. What should I be feeling?
